Ok so I haven't updated my journal in a long ass time. I've been busy. Starting school next week. Working more hours at my job. All kinda shit. But the basic thing is. I've been meeting a lot of dudes and for the first time in a long time. I like a guy. I mean I actually like a guy. Not lust or just attracted to but actually like. He is real cool and sweet and all that kinda shit. But the thing is he is kinda seeing someone. I don't know where that's going. The guy doesn't treat him the way he should be treated and he is thinking about dipping. I don't know even if that happens if we're just gonna be friends or what. I don't know but I do know that I hope we do. It's been a while since I've actually haf these feelings and it would be nice if I could be with him you know. But I wont stress it and if it happens it happens if not then oh well.